Semester break scandal

Today was kinda like a very hard day for me. Sleeping late at night and woke up late in the afternoon.. Well, i got to do something about it. Looking at my blog it's like so dead! Just like what this blog owner is. D-E-A-D!! Okey fine, like whatever. Lots and lots of things are happening and I'm trying to figure it out what I should do the best. Making myself stuck in a big mess is seriously not what I want now. Well, at least being with my dear friends would help a lot. Even for a few hours but it help!

I wish for a better semester break, but it turns out to be slightly unwanted things to happen. There are some things that i can publish and some are not. There are some that i can share with others and there are some that i just have to keep to myself.

I'd wish to hang out with my boy 3-4times a week this holiday but i know it's just not going to happen. I do seriously understand his situation so I decided to go to work. A part time job which I don't think I would ever want to do it again. Well, the reason why I want to go for a job is because I want to have a date and I am so frustrated with myself that I did not have money for his birthday plan.Yeah, it sucks. My first time celebrating a boyfriend's birthday and i could not do it as what i plan. But then, I needed the money to date and hangout with him. And lastly, for my next semester's education. Okey, that's just an excuse. But with 0 job in hand, I guess I'll just sit and wait for next semester to come.

Then, I got the news that he might being leaving me and go and work in Borneo. We had a fight the night before and it was totally my fault. When I woke up in the morning and read his message, I thought it was because of me. Cause we always had this small fights but that is what I love the most. I have to say that I always get what I want during my previous relationship. If i say A, they would just say yes or okey. But it's just different with him. If I say A he would say B and we would fight for it. Yes, I'm tired with this firghts but if we don't it's just not us. There would not be US in it. But then, he's not that bad. Well, he might be a bit naughty but it's just fine for me. When we were together, it would just be us. And he'll make me choose and decide everything I want. From movies, foods to what to do.. I'll decide everything. And he'll be the most romantic guy I've ever had. Yet, I'm still not the best girl. Even if he says that i am, but I'm not. I'm still trying my best to be the girl.

Okey, back to the topic. I had a dream last night. My father is in the dream and when I woke up I kinda like miss him so much. But I knew it's not the right time yet to meet him again after 2years. I mean, he's not supporting me with what I am doing. Untill he does, I'll think bout it. I just hope that he'll one day be proud of me and accept me being in this masscom field. If I would ever say it to him, I miss you.

Emm.. I don't think I can continue writing this. I'd better be going or I'll start to be a cry baby once again. But before I go, to my love one.. You'll always be in my heart and whatever I do, it is only for you.

I miss them~

Post ini saya ambil dari page facebook saya..
Ia, saat ini memang saya masih rindu kan mereka semua..

I miss my darling so much.

No words could describe how i feel towards him. He's my lover. He's my soul. He's the reason why I am still here.

After a year of ups and downs, I am looking for more on him. And I know I'll be there for him no matter what happens. If he's feeling down, I wanna be there for him.

I give you my heart for you to take good care of it. Hold it in your arms and never let it go. Cause when it falls, you might not know.

I love you and I miss you so badly.

I miss my girls.

We've been together since Form1 and you've know a lot about me. Yet, you are still here with me. Giving me all the support that I really needed. Giving me all the fun that I would never want to dropped it. You're my beloved friends..

Nothing more than just a thanks for you girls. I wish our friendship would last forever.

I miss my dear old friend back in TIKL.

Not only them but all of you.

Seha, Qis, Senah, Efa, Dila, Edy (Farhana), Haziq Najee, Hamid..

If i left out any names, i mean this to you too.

I miss being with you. I miss to have fun gossiping with you. I miss to eat pizza during prep with you. I miss not to study and laugh with you when we're supposed to study. I miss it when you say "S****, pakai kain jumaat next week." and I'll just smile and not wearing it again.

I miss all the fun including FLYING with you.. ;p

I miss my GTz..

I miss the "Part1 dah gedik" thing.

I miss my cousin...

Not in here; Syazwan & Syazly..

And also they are my family..


And To all my other friends,
It's not that I don't miss you.
I really do..
Thanks for being there with me all the time.
Thanks for all the support.
Friends forever~
I miss them~

I'm back!

I'm so on holiday mood, even i should be studying right now. But, hell.. I need a rest ok. Like a really really really longggg rest! It seems like I only update this blog 4-5time this sem. I'm so busy that I have no time to type and update stories in here. But, hey. I'll summarize everything up now.

3rd semester of being a Masscom student had been a really.. how should i say.... Lot's of ups and downs that i had to face. I'm so not going to touch on studies first. It's holiday right, so bout other things first.

At the beginning of the semester, I was indeed quite happy. As usual, being with dear friends. Wake up early and going to class was what i did everyday. No internet, well that sucks (that was another reason why I didnt update in my blog). And as usual, having lunch and dinner and sometimes supper with friends and gossiping about others was great. Okey, this is one point that I could NEVER understand ladies (even I'm one of them. Well, maybe that is what ladies do. I have no idea).

Oh,ok. Here is my first story. Ladies; gossiping. Yeah, it's fun to listen to lots and lots of stories. Somehow, it's been like "Hello.. he's so bla bla bla.. and she's bla bla bla.. xoxo.. Gossip Girl." Hahahaa. Well, i have no problem with that. Listening to gossip is a part of ladies daily life. What annoyed me is that when something happens to them, they'll start to get angry. And it would be like this..

"F**k la! I dah cakap kot bla bla bla.. B**i betul la! Ee.. Sh*t!"

and all I can say is..

"sabar lah. I dah try kot... Tak dapat gak. U nak suruh i buat apa"

and she'll be like;

"you tak bgtau bla bla bla ke? Ee.. you ni pentingkan diri la"

and I'll be like;

"WTF!! Aku dah pertahankan kau kot!!! Kau yang pentingkan diri kau kata aku?"

but i said this;

"I dah cakap ok!"

And also;

"F**k lah 'A' tu. Dia tu gunakan i kot. Pentingkan diri. I dah malas gle layan perangai budak2 dia tu."

Okey, dia kata malas dah nak layan. But she keeps on telling me the same story. I'm like wth. You said you're going to put it a side but you're the one yang keep on talking and bising-bising bout it. And as for me, AKU CAPEK!!

And yang terbaru I kena;

"s**N*, asal you tak buang sampah. Dah penuh kot."

I was doing my assignment and I was like wtf! Kau sape nak arah-arah aku? Aku dah bagi guna tong sampah and plastik aku, kau tak boleh nak buang ke? Kau pun buang gak sampah dalam tu kan? And selalu pun kalau berhabuk and semua takde dalam bilik tu, aku gak yang sapu kot! Kau ingat aku kuli kau??

So, I buat bodoh sudah. Aku tak tau apa masalah pempuan ni. Sumpah! Yang pasti, aku adalah cakap dengan beberapa kawan aku mengenai perkara ni and semua pun macam...

"Tau takpe. Dari dulu kot. Igt tak masa bla bla bla..."

And bila I pikir kan balik, ada betul apa yang diaorang cakap. Manusia ni cuma nak kita ikut cakap dia. Pandai cakap orang lain macam budak tapi diri sendir tak sedar. Agak sedih jugak lah sebab selama ni kalau dia sakit aku juga yang jaga. Kalau dia nak ke mana-mana aku juga yang teman. But now, biar lah. Aku bahagia bergerak sendirian. Kepada dia, i hope you sedar. You dah banyak hurt orang. Jadi, apa-apa aje lah. I pun tak perlu kan sesiapa kat sana untuk jaga i.

Alamak, kenapa dah jadi in BM ni. Tak apa lah ye, bahasa apa pun tak kira okey? Next, apa saje yang berlaku semester ni.. Sebenarnya,terlalu banyak yang berlaku pada semester ini. Banyak subject baru yang saya belajar. Menarik. Photo Communication, Graphic, Journalism, Public Relation.. (Maaf untuk subject2 yg tidak di sebut.. Kerana subject yang di sebut ni adalah killer subject bagi saya).

So, let's check out "my killer subject" punya hasil..

I'll start with Photo Comm. It's an interesting subject. Knowing the right way to snap pictures, it was great. Trying and dying to get the right apperture and shutter.. It kills me at the first place. Masa mula-mula masuk kelas Miss Mayu ni I would say I cried!! Seriously, I did. Cause when I bought my D60 camera I had no idea how to use it and during my class I could not understand anything what she was saying. I was like "what's this and that and this..". I try to ask my classmate but they were wayyy too busy with their camera and they actually ignored me. Well, atleast most of them did. Some "tried" to help but yeah thanks. So, I godek2 sendiri camera tu and try to figure it out macam mana nak guna benda alah ni secara MANUAL!! Antara kejadian yang berlaku dalam kelas Photo ni yang mungkin meninggalkan kesan dekat I;

1) Masa di beri assignment 7pictures; (dah type half way tadi tapi tiba2 rasa sakit hati. sebab teringat dia yang memperli I dalam kelas.)


2) Masa nak shoot for Photo Gallery; adalah kejadian yang tak di ingini berlaku. I dengan partner I tak minta banyak pun. Just say "thanks" pun susah sangat ke? Dah lah kau tu menempek belakang susah payah orang. Lepas tu siap memperli I lagi. Memang lu bikin diri lu jadi bahan gelak lah! (kisah perli ni nanti dekat kelas journ i cite) Oh, terlupa pulak pengalaman yang I dapat sebab berjaya dapat "Press Pass" untuk event Le Tour De Langkawi. Being with the press is just the best thing ever. Lepas jugak lah kemarahan masa tu. Ada manusia tu budjet dia nak senang2 dapat lah. I dengan my friend tu susah payah carik and tebalkan muka, dia nak sedap2 dapat bahan? NO WAY. Kalau ucap thanks takpe jugak. Tapi takde. Ni lah budak-budak zaman sekarang. Tak reti nak hargai and hormat orang lain.

3) Shooting untuk siapkan 7pictures; a day before my dateline I went to KL just to shoot limited and extended depth of field picture. Agak best sebab i pergi banyak tempat yang i tak pernah jejak kaki. Yes, tak pernah! And i nak kata even this type of picture yang paling senang untuk di tangkap tapi yang paling mencabar untuk i. I tak tau berapa banyak kali i shoot tapi over expose. Dah lah i terpaksa berkejar untuk print gambar dan balik Melaka balik kan sebab my presentation is at 8.30am. Huhuhu..




4) Storyboard; the shooting for my storyboard was fab! Esp with my happening friends. Paling best masa dekat tasik. Enjoy sangat-sangat. Thanks friends.. Dan proses membuat storyboard tu.. Adoi.. 3kali kena buat sebab laptop ni hang. Nasib lah takde kipas kat atas.. Bilik aircond kan, tak dapat lah nak "hang" diri gak. Dan akhirnya, tepat 7.20am saya berjaya siapkan story saya. And, alhamdulillah... Saya berpuas hati! [idea untuk lagu yang di gunakan saya dapat dalam tandas. Sungguh tak boleh blah!]


5) Dan akhirnya, lecturer yang kami sangkakan "jahat" itu sebenarnya sangat baik dengan kami. Dan dia tidak lagi akan berada di UiTM Melaka sebab akan ke Shah Alam. Huhuhu.. We're goin to miss you Miss Mayu.

Okey, itu Photo Comm. Graphic pula, macam ni ceritanya.

Lecturer kami, sangat comel ok!! Hahaha.. even kelas graphic ni nampak macam senang tapi final test dia buat saya menanges! Sebab saya tak boleh jawab. Sir, pass kan saya sir.. Tak nak repeat!! Apa yang menarik mengenai kelas Mr Rusydi ni is masa dalam lab, biasa lah. Kitaorg boleh online. So, some of us did open our YM. Minggu-minggu pertama kelas sir, i dengan kawan i dok YM "sir i punya.." or "awww.. my hubby!!" dan macam-macam lagi.. Fun.!

Yang lain, semasa presentation my cover mag i tak dapat tiket balik hari ahad. Juga kerana i ada shooting the day before. And i dah minta untuk lewatkan my presentation. Tapi agak frust kat sini cause non of my members did help utk tangguhkan kejap benda ni. I don't know, I tak nak say anything. Maybe diaorang ada minta tangguh tapi tak dapat. So, no comment. Cewaahh!

Hah, next yang menarik sem ni is during my Journalism class. Mdm Hajar. She's so funny and dia sangat best! Ada sehari tu i stay dalam bilik dia for more than 2hours chatting dengan dia. Padahal at first nak tanya pendapat dia je. Tapi dia tunjukkan I satu-satu apa yang penting semua. Wow! Dia berjaya buat I bukak mata. TQ madam!

Ingat I cakap sesuatu tentang perli sebentar tadi? Hah, dalam kelas ni lah "perli" itu berlaku. Cerita nya macam ni. Lepas kelas photo untuk tunjuk gamba photo gallery, kitaorang ada kelas journalism ni. And kitaorang kena hantar soalan interview. So nak di jadikan cerita adalah few groups yang masih kekurangan soalan. Dan lecturer tu pun cakap lah something like "Kamu ni kongsi2lah dengan kawan-kawan yang lain" Lepas tu tiba-tiba ada orang menyampuk. Dia cakap macam ni, "Jangan kedekut kan Madam". And madam pun macam "hah.. Jangan kedekut". Dan.... tiba2 hamba Allah ni bersuara lagi, "Tu, macam yang baju hijau tu". And masa tu pulak dalam kelas tu cuma I je yang berbaju hijau and manusia ni pulak i taktau lah apa masalah dia tak suka kat I kan. And, I kat depan dah tergelak-gelak dah. Macam, manusia ni gila ke? Madam cakap pasal soalan. Bukan pasal gamba. Soalan tak kongsi markah tapi gambar kongsi. Hurm, budak-budak bukan? I dengan my photo partner masa tu macam "woi, ko tak sedar ke ko tu menumpang!!" tapi, apa-apa aje lah. I malas nak pikir tentang manusia ni. Memang tak reti hormat and tak reti berterima kasih. In other way, I kata dia ni BUDJET! Opps!

Perkara kedua yang menarik mengenai kelas ni is I rasa I berpeluang untuk interview news editor TV3. Bekerjasama dengan Mr Kamaruddin Mape sangat-sangat bermakna. TQ.


Well,itu antara apa yang menarik sem ni. Nanti akan di cerita kan lagi. Tulis panjang-panjang pun nanti penat baca kan?? So, jumpa lagi guys.!

P/S : Gambar-gambar di dalam ini adalah antara gambar yang pada saya menarik dan sangat mencabar.